Sunday, January 18, 2015

the day i redefine LOVE

Assalamualaikum.

2 years.731 days 1 hour and 20 minutes. it's been that long since i started learning about LOVE in a way I would never have imagined. the day when i was brought into the operation theater with a possibility of not waking up again to see my loved ones. the day i let go of all my plans and trusted His.the day I told myself that if i was given another chance to see them again,to be able to breath again, I would do it differently.

it has been 2 years since that day and i keep on reminding myself there must be a reason why I am still living. there must be things Allah wants me to do. the moment i woke up from that 12 hours surgery, i was glad. when i saw my mom walked into that ICU room i was happy. i felt like hugging her and all i want to say was i am sorry. i am sorry that you have to go through this.i am so sorry i keep making you worry. but my mom,my family, my close friends.they taught me lessons i could never learn by myself. they taught me about LOVE. and from the moment onwards, i slowly redefine LOVE.

that time when i was so broken that i would understand if they could not hold me because i myself who should love me the most wasn't being able to do so.they held me anyways. so tight that all the pieces felt intact even though it's broken.they cried with me, they prayed for me, they held my hands till the very end when i was ready to let go. i wanted to let go so that they wont get hurt but they insisted. they taught me that in life, a lot of things can go wrong but love, real love will remain. i learned that not everyone can love me so i need to appreciate those who do. they taught me that hardship to love should be like a wind to the fire. it extinguishes the small, it inflames the great. so to the people i love or will love, please know that i may not be able to give you forever but within that limited time God is giving me, I would appreciate you like no other. because the best love story to learn from is not when it's told but when it's shown. my loved ones have taught me so much about love.

Alhamdulillah for them.Alhamdulillah for this second chance.
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5 comments:

Fuz said...

I don't know what happened.but there is always a reason. Have a good blessed life

nik idzni dalila said...

It was in my previous post if you are curious.thanks..may Allah bless

Anonymous said...

Your ability to keep seeing the blessings despite of what's happened is so so admirable. You are so loved, and it's no wonder :) keep on keeping on.

nik idzni dalila said...

alhamdulillah hopefully i'll keep the ability and would be able to suggest people to see things from that perspective as well. thanks :)

zacky786 said...

:)