Wednesday, January 27, 2010


no words can express my greatest gratitude to the Almighty for all His blessings and guidance.I am so happy due to the fact that almost all my prayers have been answered.Alhamdulillah.Thank God..Now what i need to do is to keep myself closer to Him. And i need to work super duper hard for my A2 and also the upcoming ielts exams.I'm also praying so hard for my university applications.I hope to get atleast 2 offers but if i get more than that,i wud be happier.what i learn throughout my journey to reach to this point is that, the results not only depend on the effort but also will be influenced by our attitudes,behaviour,the way we treat our teachers n frens and parents.It is more than what we think it is. i do face a lot of obstacles.i cry a lot and sometime i tell Him that i cant bear all this difficulties anymore but then He helps me to make it through.
Lesson of the day-if we want Him to help us,dont do things he dislikes=)

Sunday, January 24, 2010

a trip to mid

it was juz a normal college trip. i went there juz to meet my sister n take my ring and watch that i left in her room about 2 weeks kill da rest of the time,i went to the cinema to see what horror movies that seemed interesting..there was one which is carrier but unfortunately the show was at 4pm.i cudnt watch that coz i needed to go back at 5.30pm.=((((..but then i decided to re-watch paranormal activity and i didnt regret it.watching in the cinema gave more effects and i kinda like it sooo much..after that i went to get all the stuffs that my friends asked me to buy..secret recipe cake,chicken cornish,calimine lotion..ect..ect..i was not in a very good mood actually for some personal reasons but i choosed not to disappoint them coz i knw how it felt to be craving for outside food when u live in a jungle=p..suprisingly,when i was in the bus waiting for all my friends to come so that we can head to the verdant upland again,i saw dilshad!! i was so excited!we were not that close before but there was something special in our frenship..i was so sad knowing the fact that he wont be joining us in college again but somehow i knw he's doing something good for himself.during the one hour journey to lembah beringin,i started to think about kept lingering in my mind like a song i never had to just came. i had a lot of friends esp guys coz i felt more comfortable talking to them.though sometimes guys' words can be quite harsh but most of them didnt use those words when talking to me or if they did,i'll be so pissed off n made them apologise..hahaha..i missed the time when i used to hang out with them,telling stories n complained about how hard my life was.i lost a few of my closest fren coz the way we see the friendship was different but it didnt matter to me.i mean,it was the past and why cudnt we be fren now?atleast give me a smile or a hi when we was so sad to lose frens but i do understand they need time to adapt maybe but i warmly welcome all my frens whenever u feel like it.

Thursday, January 14, 2010


after a long wait in vain, litres of tears being shed,went through a lot of stressful phases in life,now i can at least smile though it's too early to be happy or excited. there's 1 friend of mine said to me when i was crying n grumbling about all those unfortunate things i need to face-u might question why these things are happening n it seems that no matter how much you ask for God's help,nothing could be changed but u are wrong.He always listen to you and the fact that He knows everything and he's waiting for the right time to help you.. don't give up and have faith n everything will be fine..easier said than done but now i realize that it's true.He brings us to these so He will helps us making through these is never fair if you keep taking things from the negative side.

sometimes we ask ourselves,why we still do not get the result we always want though we did study very's not only about's more than that.when u can figure out the other factors then will you knw that actually it can be achieved a lot easier..


it's my 4th day in college n i started to feel so tired with everything.i know that i should not feel this way.GOD,help me...give me strength..i'm done with 2 interviews.2 more to go.bangsawan is coming and i really dont feel like doing anything for bangsawan but unfortunately i am the house committee n by hook or by crook,i need to help them with this..i have a lot of test coming.a lot of things to study.i'm sooooo worried .i really need to manage my time very well and i wont succumb.i have ielts exam coming in 1 month n i really need to prepare as i'm not genetically predispose to be good in English.i need to work hard.OMG! everything seems so scary right now.AS result will be announced in 10 days and i'm so not ready not to get A for my bio.its the only subject i took last sem and i shudnt screw it up..i hope i didnt.despite all the stressful things i faced,i knw there is always someone who keeps on supporting and encouraging me n make me happy..thanks=)

Thursday, January 7, 2010

the old one has been deleted

my new's gonna be all about me,my thoughts and anything around me.let's start with my new year resolutions. I want 3A's for my alevel,at least 7.5 for each of my ielts components,university placements n i want to enjoy my last semester in college.It isnt simple as it sounds. I need to really work hard as now i am dealing with A2.Come on!A2 is way harder than AS.However,i'm not gonna let anything jeopardise my obligations. I will pull my socks up and do my very best. I cant imagine how dissapointed my parents will be if i couldnt achieve these resolutions.NO!No!NO! I have to be positive.YES,i can do this.I just need to sacrifice a little of my too-much-sleeping-time and concentrate more in classes.A reservoir of courage is needed to keep me on going and survive my 4th sem n meet the requirements n fly..OMG! I'm that close to my dream already and what am i waiting for?go for it!!fight!fight!fight! i wish it is as easy as putting it down in words. indeed,it is NOT! but it's not IMPOSSIBLE!! not impossible at all as i've seen so many people survived.why cant i?i dont care if anyone says that i am kiasu(ky's term of studying very hard).i wanna be kiasu.i cant afford to fail.hello!it's rm60 000 of malaysian citizens' money that i'm talking about.this is more than just a personal goal.this is a responsibilty towards the money that has been invested for my education. so idzni,listen to your heart!!study hard is a must!!

i received an interview offer few days ago.i was so grateful as i thought i'm not gonna get any because my ps sucks.thank GOD..alhamdulillah..i shud not waste this opportunity.i need to convince this uni to take me as i'm not sure about my 3 other uni.i need to memorise as much facts about medic n try my very best to impress them.i really need this.pls pls pls..i'm so scared but i know i need to put all the negative thoughts aside. i need my positive self right now.i need to be confidence.gudluck nik idzni dalila=)